Arc of the Souls Chapter 120: Arc 3, Chapter 42 - Tell Me I Matter

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Why try to be a hero if you can't save one human? One measly human. He looked at himself from Satono's point of view, his dying mind assuming the same sadistic principle that she uttered in her head like a mantra. Kill those who oppose you. Kill those who are beneath you. Kill those that look down upon you. Kill those that are less of a human that you are. Kill. Kill. Kill. Kill. Kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill kill Kill this pathetic human trying to stand up against her. Kill this self-proclaimed warrior of peace trying to paint her in an evil picture. Trying to act like he is any better. "Look at this! Look at this! You can see yourself through me, can't you!? You're thinking of a way to try and survive this, aren't you!? But you can't! You're gonna die by my hand, right here! I'll drop your corpse next to my sister and you both will be nothing but dirt on my shoes! Isn't that just fantastic!? I'll mutilate your corpse, turn you into a doll to be my plaything! I'll maim you, cut you, skin you... Heh... hehe..." --- Don't you feel that grip around you get tighter? Doesn't that excite you? The way the world stops spinning for just a second when your brain can't even think of a single thing? --- This is how it feels to be me every single day. Every second of every single day... You're nothing but an insect to me. A worthless insect that deserves no place on the planet you're born in. A human who has done nothing for humanity other than prolong their miserable life... And now you'll die alongside your pathetic friend while I leave with the remains of my pathetic sister in my hands. That way, everyone can see what I've done to this wretched human. Don't peek into my thoughts, don't try to act like you can relate to me. You are far below me. Far, far below my shoes. You and all these pathetic people... --- --- All I ever wanted is to have my own father beside me. A happy family with a Greatfather who didn't look down on me. I wanted to be powerful like my brother Sachiel just so I could be of use to him. Just so he could look at me with a smile and show me how much of a good sister I was, working to get stronger. I wanted to feel the loving embrace of my sister around my body, telling me just how much they deserved me, rather than make me feel like I'm an afterthought... All I wanted... was to be looked upon like an Eria. A Testharian... ... I didn't want to overstep. I just wanted a simple life. I've tried. So hard. I've begged. I've asked. But never received an answer. Never even a hint that my existence mattered in this world. My only worth to them was to become an illusion! To disappear from their memory because they couldn't care about a single speck like me! My father was not mad! They gaslighted him! Made him believe in things that aren't true! All he ever wanted was a supporting hand but all he got was dismissive talks and neglect! They drove my father insane! He didn't mean to cause a genocide! ... I'm not like my father! I'M NOT LIKE MY FATHER! If you think that I'm like my father in any way or form, I swear to the Soul Gods that I'll erase you from the very reality we live in! I'm loving and kind! I love my family! I love my sister! I love my father! I love my greatfather! I hate that they shunned me! I hate that they thought less of me! I hate my family! I hate my sister! I hate my father, my greatfather, you, myself! EVERYONE! --- What should I do, sis...? I fucked up... and you're still not scolding me. Why? Are you looking down on me? Am I nothing to you? Do you still love me, even after all this time? "I never hated you..." These