The Reason For Existence Chapter 1: The Man and The Bird

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“What am I even doing?” Said the young man after coming home to his apartment from work, not even having taken off his shoes yet. His day wasn't good, nor was it bad either, it was just normal. Nothing to take note of and nothing to regret, even though he didn't have to work every day, it was the same as the many he had faced before. That filled the young man with an incomprehensible sense of dread as if he were drowning in a pool with no surface. As for the young man, he wasn't someone to take note of either. He was 23 years old, with his short black hair, brown eyes, and a slim yet slightly taller than average physique accompanied by clothing that would be better suited for a casual day out. Once the man took off his shoes, he went straight for his fridge and reheated some frozen food he had stored in there, as he did when coming home from work. He ate the food and after he was done washing the dishes, went into his room and looked out the window wanting to see the stars at night to try and clear his head, however the bright city lights didn't allow him to. And so he got changed, brushed his teeth and scrolled meaningless posts on his phone he'd forget in the next minute then went off to bed. This was his everyday life. He hated it. “A wedding?” He said, a bit surprised. He usually never had to work at weddings, but he wasn't complaining, in fact, he was a little excited for this new job. He got ready to go out with his overly casual clothing and equipment for his job, then took a ride to the wedding. Once he arrived, he set up what he had brought and started to take pictures. It all seemed like a blur to him, he thought that day would be different. “At least I’m getting paid” he thought to himself once he snapped out of his trance, placing his camera down and looking at all the people present. “It would be nice to be the one being taken photos of in a wedding. Maybe one day.” he started to think, and lost his train of thought as he picked his camera back up to finish what he came to do. The whole day passed in blur, just like any day for him, until the ceremony started. He broke from his trance once more when he saw those people, up in the altar, he had no idea who they were until now. People who had lived their lives until that moment, and would now live them together. He saw two people who cared for each other, people who would have happy moments together, who would see obstacles together, who promised to live their lives together no matter what happened. He looked up at them and felt sick to his stomach. He felt sick and wanted to throw up right then and there, he was confused as to why because he had felt nothing wrong with him up until that moment. Then he started to feel a deep rage towards everyone around him. He had no idea what was happening to him, but he wanted to leave that place, he didn't care what anyone thought of him at that moment. But despite every part of his body screaming at him to leave, he decided to stay and finish his job. The moment everything was done, he walked out without saying a word. The wedding he had to work at was about a one hour walk from his apartment, but at that moment he had no desire to speak to anyone so he made the choice to walk home instead of ordering a ride. While he was walking home, he felt a weight on the back side of his head, it didn't hurt him, it was just there, he could feel it pounding. All the while, he was holding his desire to throw up in the middle of the street. He kept thinking back to the wedding, how he felt when he saw the bride and the groom up in the altar. “Should I go to the hospital?” he muttered to himself, wondering if he had eaten something that made him sick. As he kept thinking and muttering to himself he saw a blurry dot on the pavement where he was walking. That blurry dot made him lose focus of his thoughts, and he saw it move. That dot was actually a little bird. A little bird was lying on the street, unable to fly, it probably wasn't able to a